Orientation week is still in full swing and will be throughout the weekend. Even though there is so much stuff going on, I really am not stressed out at all. I know that God is my wingman and won't let me screw up too bad. But as we get closer to Monday when campers will be rolling in, I am realizing how unprepared I am to share God with other people (much less kids who may have never encountered Christ before). For example, what if a camper comes up to me and says that they are ready to accept Christ into their life. There is really no way to prepare for that because I am not going to give them a canned speech. I will have to rely on the Holy Spirit to just speak for me, and that takes a lot of faith. Not only that, but I have been a little weak in my relationship with God, and I can usually just fake it when I am going to church every week and when I am living a Christian life. I am not saying that I am fake in my relationship with God, because I love God and want to devote my life to him. But what I am saying is that when I am having one of those days when I just don't feel like praying, it is not a huge deal because God is always with me. However, if I don't keep a very close and very personal relationship with God up here, then I am going to fall on my face and possibly push my campers away from God forever. This whole camp is way more than I signed up for. When I signed up, I was thinking that it would be a great time to grow in the Lord and spend some time in Alaska, but it is so much more. I mean, guess who gets to teach bible studies to my campers? Me. Guess who they will come to with their hard questions about their faith? Me. Guess who is in charge of getting these kids to go out of their spiritual comfort zone. Me. I need God's help. There is no way that I am ready for this, and it is scaring me to death. Sure, next week I won't have as many campers as the following weeks, but I still have to be 100% for those few kids that I do have! God is putting them in my hands and I have to be ready! Ahh... but this is going to be so much fun. I can't wait. I was praying last night, and I started to realize how many people I know that are either lukewarm in their faith (which God says is the worst way to be; be either hot or cold but not lukewarm), or have completely shunned God all together. To you guys, I ask why? I guess after getting so much closer to God while being stretched in my faith, I don't understand how you couldn't believe in God. I want to know... why.